“The data shapes what you conclude. But your experiences shape what you do. And what you do is so, so- important.” -Steward Pickett, 2019 Ecological Society of America Diversity Forum. • Thank you @ecologicalsociety for the opportunity to speak to others about my work. Being heard and validated by my fellow scientists fills my heart. Thank you for reminding me that my unique perspective is not only valuable, but an ecological imperative. •
Working in this field can be exhausting and painful. Sometimes I’m angry. It hurts to care so much about this planet while watching human greed threaten everything. I don’t know if I’m a person that believes we are all here for “something,” for some greater purpose. But if I am, it’s to fight for this planet. And while others burn the world with their anger, I vow to turn my anger and struggle into- seeds. The garbage and misery I went through is breaking down into the very soil I am tending. The stubbornness I was told to subdue lives as mycorrhizal fungi facilitating nourishment from soil that was once just pain. I don’t have to be strong or perfect. I will burst and cry and scream, and my tears will water the ground. I’m starting to see buds. I’m starting to see green. The world wants my growth in a tight box of labels, because it’s easy to control something that’s contained. But I promise to grow without fear. Unashamed. Vivid. Full. And like all good things, wild.